And I know - this I do know - that what is written on every page of the Word is love for you and love for me and it's love-never-ending.
Amazing because it's not really deserved.
Amazing because no matter where you are in life, no matter what your circumstances, no matter what you've done or not done - you are dearly, completely, and utterly loved by Love Himself.
And I know - this I do know.
But sometimes days are hard, and harder. Some days nothing - no, not one thing - seems to go right, and it's not even just that the dishwasher or the car is broken but that hearts are broken and I still find this amazing grace, because I do feel broken and sore-tried, but I still feel loved.
Did you know? I didn't.
I never knew that you could feel the misery of this imperfect-at-best-and-sin-drenched-at-worst world, and still feel His arms around you and still feel His heart beating love for you.
I never knew that joy is possible even when pain is present.
Because here's the thing - joy is only really possible when we're in God's presence.
And God is always present.
So joy is always possible.
On the mountain, and in the valley - He is here. On Christmas morning with smiles all-around and love lavishly given, and on a Tuesday in the middle of winter when brothers spew out venomous words and aim dead-on-center to hurt. When the best you can say about the day is that the cat only threw up once, and for this you're grateful.
Some days the winds whip hard.
Some days hurt.
But joy? It's really still here (amazing! grace!), and I'm still loving this speaking love-words to loved-ones (that's YOU!).
Because He's here.
And this is really His-dream-become-my-dream.